5PM... Sunday... my mom's bound to go to US. As seen in my previous posts, it's the dreaded day I've been 'preparing' for. Seeing her wave goodbye through the big glass windows of the Centennial Airport really broke my heart... she was supposed to go out after checking in her baggage but for some reason, the guard didn't allow her. She signaled that she'll talk to me through the cellphone of Tita Vhie... I refused to get the cellphone. It's hard to speak especially if one is fighting the tears.
I took a leave Monday... to breathe a little. It seems that a big part of me has died because of her absence. Although I knew that this would happen, I realized that nothing can really prepare you for something like that. I spent the day fixing the stuff that she left... no tv, no radio... doors were locked... almost all day in silence and solitude. There were moments when I cried because of the realization that my best homebuddy is now far away... No more midnight chats when I'd wake her up and be next to her for a little day update... No more cleaning the house together... No more eye to eye contacts on things that only we can understand... No more 3 musketeers in church on Sundays...
After she left, I've been receiving phonecalls from my Nanay, Kuya Raymond and Kuya Robert... checking if I'm okay.... Actually, before she left, people around her would usually ask, 'Paano si Ann?'. She would always reply,'kaya naman niya yan.'
I'm thankful because before she left she saw me get employed in a stable organization and felt financially 'blessed' in 2008. The year has been good to us indeed. She even told me, 'siguro kung hindi pa ko umalis this year, I'm sure magiging masaya tayo nitong 2009.'
It'll be sad at first but it's gonna be okay.... hopefully soon....
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