Thanks G! because 2008 has truly been a good year. Looking back in the previous one, I should say that my life was a total mess.
Thank you for this opportunity. It did open the door for a lot of blessings for me and my family and for other people as well. I'm not perfect and there are days where I'm crappy and lazy and happy go lucky. My mom told me na pagbutihin ko dahil bibihira ang mga ganitong pagkakataon. Now, as I'm writing this, I came to realize that I really should do better because here, my needs well taken cared of.
In terms of my personal life, I'm also thankful for tomorrow will be our 4th year anniversary. It's also a good year although there were times that we had to be apart because I had to be away for work. There may be petty fights but generally, 2008 is also a good year for us.
To all my friends, thanks for sticking with me and for keeping me sane.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
Regalong malupet!!!
Kahapon, habang ako'y naglalakad sa Mall of Asia, napatingin ako sa isang tindahan. Parang 'lightbulb' moment -- pumasok ako at nagtingin. At ang magandang balita, ako'y nakabili ng isang malupet na regalo.... Medyo may kamahalan pero sobrang sulit. Clue: Made in Japan.
Kaya ang saya-saya ko kagabi habang aking pinapanuod na binabalot ang aking regalo.
Wala nang tatalo sa regalo na ito.
Winner talaga!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Kaya ang saya-saya ko kagabi habang aking pinapanuod na binabalot ang aking regalo.
Wala nang tatalo sa regalo na ito.
Winner talaga!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Christmas wishful thinking
I must admit that I feel sad, crappy and grumpy especially these past few weeks and I know that YOU know why. Can't you at least show some more consideration? Can't you at least go out of your way and do something to make me feel okay? If I'm still not okay, can't you at least try harder or think of some other stuff?
Surprise me!
Surprise me!
Christmas is just around the corner
My scheduled leaves got kinda wasted last week after being sick... I was down with fever and my body is in its 'cleansing' state. Even crackers and water were driven out of my body. So instead of going somewhere else and doing something else, I spent all my time in bed, watching DVDs and sleeping. We just ate out during the companywide Christmas celebration last Wednesday -- I dunno what organism got into me. At least I'm quite okay now.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Downtime...
I dunno why but I feel so f*cking depressed/sad today. Whenever this moment comes, I suddenly look back at how I lived my life and my plans on how I'll be living it for the rest of my life. Right now as I'm writing this, I feel as if I'm not sure as to where to go or how I'm gonna be.
As I've always mentioned in my previous posts, my mom's departure for the US is one of the major contributory factors of my current state. But I knew that this would be coming....
Going back... Sometimes I wonder what my real purpose is. Sometimes I think of what I really want to do in my life. Sometimes I know what I want, only to be unsure and doubting after quite some time. Maybe it's inappropriate for me to think about things too much because I tend to freeze and end up doing nothing.
I want to cry really... to let out the frustrations out of me. Iniisip ko tuloy yung sermon ng priest last Sunday. It's about frustrations. We feel such daw because we tend to things beyond our capacities... because we want too much materially, physically, emotionally.... that frustrations cause our sadness in life. We should be thankful and happy because Christmas is near. We should welcome it with happy faces and hearts. Life is supposed to be a happy one. We are the ones who are making it difficult for ourselves.
Yep, I guess they are true but I just can't seem to get the clouds off me. I hope G could simply make pitik my nose or tickle me.
As I've always mentioned in my previous posts, my mom's departure for the US is one of the major contributory factors of my current state. But I knew that this would be coming....
Going back... Sometimes I wonder what my real purpose is. Sometimes I think of what I really want to do in my life. Sometimes I know what I want, only to be unsure and doubting after quite some time. Maybe it's inappropriate for me to think about things too much because I tend to freeze and end up doing nothing.
I want to cry really... to let out the frustrations out of me. Iniisip ko tuloy yung sermon ng priest last Sunday. It's about frustrations. We feel such daw because we tend to things beyond our capacities... because we want too much materially, physically, emotionally.... that frustrations cause our sadness in life. We should be thankful and happy because Christmas is near. We should welcome it with happy faces and hearts. Life is supposed to be a happy one. We are the ones who are making it difficult for ourselves.
Yep, I guess they are true but I just can't seem to get the clouds off me. I hope G could simply make pitik my nose or tickle me.
Updates
Finally, the Christmas Party is over! After all the gruesome preparations (which includes the messy chocolate fountain), I can definitely say that it was a success and everyone agreed. I'm now in the liquidation stage... Being the one who made the budget, I was tasked to handle and account for the funds as well.
Got frustrated last Friday evening kasi I'm tired... Since wala ang bear, I decided that I want to relax -- like a massage or something to do with my hair. By the time I reached the establishments like Bioessence and that salon, they were closed na raw... Golly! 9PM palang. So I ended up going home, sad and tired.
Tapos yesterday, the bear asked me if I already put up the tree. I said no... and I really don't have plans at all. He even offered to help me decor the house. I just replied that we already have 2 rubber lanterns outside and a dancing santa inside. In the previous years, I would always set up the tree, the belen, the christmas lanterns outside.... This year, I'm not in a festive mood.... siguro because Christmas would mean that the 'time' is near... But I didn't forget the grocery packages and the lootbags that we would be giving away.
Yun lang... It's really difficult for me to celebrate big time.
Got frustrated last Friday evening kasi I'm tired... Since wala ang bear, I decided that I want to relax -- like a massage or something to do with my hair. By the time I reached the establishments like Bioessence and that salon, they were closed na raw... Golly! 9PM palang. So I ended up going home, sad and tired.
Tapos yesterday, the bear asked me if I already put up the tree. I said no... and I really don't have plans at all. He even offered to help me decor the house. I just replied that we already have 2 rubber lanterns outside and a dancing santa inside. In the previous years, I would always set up the tree, the belen, the christmas lanterns outside.... This year, I'm not in a festive mood.... siguro because Christmas would mean that the 'time' is near... But I didn't forget the grocery packages and the lootbags that we would be giving away.
Yun lang... It's really difficult for me to celebrate big time.
Sunday, December 07, 2008
Busy weekend
YUP! It was a busy weekend but a fun one and my pockets were bruised... hahahah....
Friday: John&Yoko Restaurant Greenbelt 5
Bear's parents anniversary -- As usual, I got invited to this family event. While waiting, I headed for Landmark originally to buy a swimsuit for my niece but I ended up buying Christmas stuff for all of the kids on my list. Since the bear is late because of a meeting, I was the first to meet the family at the resto. It's Japanese (kinda obvious from the name). They ordered There goes my diet (P1,600), a big sampler plate with all the Japanese goodies (too bad I wasn't able to take a picture of it) like dumpling, sashimi, maki, tempura, sate, chicken terriyaki and a huge bowl of sauteed rice in the middle. They also offer 3 colors of refillable iced tea: red, green and blue. I liked the green one best.
Saturday: Splash Mountain Los Banos, Laguna
After so many 'drawings' on this one, FINALLY! It happened. It's fun actually to pack up for a trip -- matrabaho nga lang because of the food preparation but in toto, it's sooooooooo worth it.
Entrance in the resort is P80/adult. Children under 2 years of age are free. We got a long table for P560 and rented a grill for P40. There were 8 pools available that time. It's good to go there early as people usually start to multiply in the mid afternoon. I brought the bear with us so we got an extra hand in carrying all our stuff. Foodies: rice, spaghetti (I cooked til 1AM), grilled chicken, liempo, tilapia and talong, enseladang talong, mangga, onions and tomatoes.
It's the first time my niece went on a swimming trip. We can tell that she really enjoyed it. Ayaw umahon. hehehe... Good thing it's not that sunny so we were all able to preserve our skin tones. I dunno why but my tan line sorta became more apparent.
Sunday: Tagaytay
We go to Tagaytay whenever we have the time to hear mass and then have breakfast at Mcdo or Max's. Syempre, after the mass, we had our usual fishballs/chickenballs moment. SARAP! Freshly cooked and devoured on a cold and windy morning. Then we headed to Max's for breakfast. Since we're 'regular and special' customers (my mom and tita vhie knows the waiter supervisor), Jordan (the other waiter/friend), gave us complementary iced teas. I remember during my mom's birthday last year, they gave us free chocolate ice cream.
Next stop: Pink sisters. Since we can't bring my niece inside the church, I simply accompanied her outside. I let her walk to her heart's desire. A young girl holding a canon DSLR, started to take pictures of her. She even showed me the pics and then said that she'd email them to me. Lolo! Ganun pala talaga pag hobbyist ng photography.. you take pictures of almost everything. hahhaah
Then we headed to SM Molino Hypermart for household stuff while listening on the radio for the Pacquiao updates. 8 rounds and yahoo! I placed a bet on Pacquiao for P500 which means I'll be collecting P1,000 today. hehehe...
In relation to Pacquiao's TKO, my pockets experienced it too. *sigh* But it's okay because money won't really buy those moments of happiness with my family.
Addtitional: we got home at 3PM and guess what's on TV... the 7th round. Ang dami kasing commercial. E we heard Pacman's win 1PM.
Friday: John&Yoko Restaurant Greenbelt 5
Bear's parents anniversary -- As usual, I got invited to this family event. While waiting, I headed for Landmark originally to buy a swimsuit for my niece but I ended up buying Christmas stuff for all of the kids on my list. Since the bear is late because of a meeting, I was the first to meet the family at the resto. It's Japanese (kinda obvious from the name). They ordered There goes my diet (P1,600), a big sampler plate with all the Japanese goodies (too bad I wasn't able to take a picture of it) like dumpling, sashimi, maki, tempura, sate, chicken terriyaki and a huge bowl of sauteed rice in the middle. They also offer 3 colors of refillable iced tea: red, green and blue. I liked the green one best.
Saturday: Splash Mountain Los Banos, Laguna
After so many 'drawings' on this one, FINALLY! It happened. It's fun actually to pack up for a trip -- matrabaho nga lang because of the food preparation but in toto, it's sooooooooo worth it.
Entrance in the resort is P80/adult. Children under 2 years of age are free. We got a long table for P560 and rented a grill for P40. There were 8 pools available that time. It's good to go there early as people usually start to multiply in the mid afternoon. I brought the bear with us so we got an extra hand in carrying all our stuff. Foodies: rice, spaghetti (I cooked til 1AM), grilled chicken, liempo, tilapia and talong, enseladang talong, mangga, onions and tomatoes.
It's the first time my niece went on a swimming trip. We can tell that she really enjoyed it. Ayaw umahon. hehehe... Good thing it's not that sunny so we were all able to preserve our skin tones. I dunno why but my tan line sorta became more apparent.
Sunday: Tagaytay
We go to Tagaytay whenever we have the time to hear mass and then have breakfast at Mcdo or Max's. Syempre, after the mass, we had our usual fishballs/chickenballs moment. SARAP! Freshly cooked and devoured on a cold and windy morning. Then we headed to Max's for breakfast. Since we're 'regular and special' customers (my mom and tita vhie knows the waiter supervisor), Jordan (the other waiter/friend), gave us complementary iced teas. I remember during my mom's birthday last year, they gave us free chocolate ice cream.
Next stop: Pink sisters. Since we can't bring my niece inside the church, I simply accompanied her outside. I let her walk to her heart's desire. A young girl holding a canon DSLR, started to take pictures of her. She even showed me the pics and then said that she'd email them to me. Lolo! Ganun pala talaga pag hobbyist ng photography.. you take pictures of almost everything. hahhaah
Then we headed to SM Molino Hypermart for household stuff while listening on the radio for the Pacquiao updates. 8 rounds and yahoo! I placed a bet on Pacquiao for P500 which means I'll be collecting P1,000 today. hehehe...
In relation to Pacquiao's TKO, my pockets experienced it too. *sigh* But it's okay because money won't really buy those moments of happiness with my family.
Addtitional: we got home at 3PM and guess what's on TV... the 7th round. Ang dami kasing commercial. E we heard Pacman's win 1PM.
Monday, December 01, 2008
Christmas
Today's December 2 and I can feel that Christmas is really just around the corner. It's really a jumble mumble of emotions. Frankly speaking, I don't feel excited at all. As much as I would want this to be the best Christmas ever, the thought that this would be my mom's last before she migrates to the US always crosses my mind.
What have I done so far for the season? Bulk of it is for the office party which will be held on the 12th. As for the house, my mom and tita vhie bought 2 rubber lanterns. I have visited divisoria once to buy my mom's giveaways for her students. I haven't done new costing for The Goodie Cookie (prices of raw materials rose since last year). I haven't really bought gifts for my inaanaks and other kiddos. As for our good ole tree (which is as old as me), I haven't assembled it yet. My mom and I were discussing it yesterday in the kitchen. We share the same feelings of not having one this year... because it would be totally inconvenient for me for I have lots of things to think about when she leaves.
Another thing, my brother (from Japan) will be spending Christmas here. It's a good thing actually since spending the holidays together would'nt be as regular as it used to be. SO THIS HAS TO BE ONE OF THE BEST ONES EVER!!!
but the problem is that I just can't bring out the happiness in me... I can't fool myself... I'm sad... but I guess I'll have to live the moment as it is (while they're here!!!) then deal with the loneliness for some time (when they're not here anymore). and then move on....
I know the succeeding Christmases won't be the same anymore but there are people (like Leej's family) who're kind enough to offer to 'adopt' me during the holidays. Or maybe, I could go to the US ... or other options available for me. I guess the best way to deal with this whole new scenario -- is to deal with it with optimism.
*sigh*
What have I done so far for the season? Bulk of it is for the office party which will be held on the 12th. As for the house, my mom and tita vhie bought 2 rubber lanterns. I have visited divisoria once to buy my mom's giveaways for her students. I haven't done new costing for The Goodie Cookie (prices of raw materials rose since last year). I haven't really bought gifts for my inaanaks and other kiddos. As for our good ole tree (which is as old as me), I haven't assembled it yet. My mom and I were discussing it yesterday in the kitchen. We share the same feelings of not having one this year... because it would be totally inconvenient for me for I have lots of things to think about when she leaves.
Another thing, my brother (from Japan) will be spending Christmas here. It's a good thing actually since spending the holidays together would'nt be as regular as it used to be. SO THIS HAS TO BE ONE OF THE BEST ONES EVER!!!
but the problem is that I just can't bring out the happiness in me... I can't fool myself... I'm sad... but I guess I'll have to live the moment as it is (while they're here!!!) then deal with the loneliness for some time (when they're not here anymore). and then move on....
I know the succeeding Christmases won't be the same anymore but there are people (like Leej's family) who're kind enough to offer to 'adopt' me during the holidays. Or maybe, I could go to the US ... or other options available for me. I guess the best way to deal with this whole new scenario -- is to deal with it with optimism.
*sigh*
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